rolling around

with my summer school schedule, the weekend basically starts on thursday afternoon, so ever since thursday afternoon i've been sooooo incredibly lazy. waking up late, playing sims, missing work, having my butt glued on the couch... not a pretty picture i know.
yesterday i made brunch for susan and we ate at 4pm!!! then dinner followed at 6pm. what the heck?

later on elena joined us and we all rolled around susan's apartment together. then we moved back to my apartment to watch "keeping the faith" [featuring edward norton, ben stiller, and jenna elfman]
good movie.
especially good because i felt like i could relate to it in some way. don't you love it when you listen to a song, watch a movie, read a book, etc. and the words express so well how you feel at that moment?

i've never had so many people visit me at the same time. yesterday, stephen, susan, and jung were over and my new roommate sarah was chillin with us and it was like a party in 205!! it'd be so fun if all my friends lived in the same apt complex [or even the same street]. it'd be just like the dorms :)
speaking of dorms, i am now officially a 3rd year student at Cal. how gross is that. i know many people feel me when i say i still feel like a freshman. man, we're gonna have people born in 85/86 up in here.

ok time to go eat some more~ enjoy your weekend everyone (mine lasts til tuesday!)

* daniel bedingfield - if you're not the one
i can particularly relate to this song right now. ahem.

allergy?

reason #278124893 why i love kids:
a couple days ago at work i assisted a "pond's alive!" class (science class about habitats for 1st graders) and we were talking about the food web. the teacher posed a question: "what do the small animals and insects eat?" a lot of kids responded, "plants!" but this one kid shouted out, "allergy!"
the teacher and i gave a perplexed look and just as the teacher was about to explain what an allergy is, another kid said, "it's ALGAE, not allergy!"
hahahahaha that is just too cute.

summer in berkeley for the past week has been really really fun. for those of you who went back home, you are missing out!!
sunday i slept in (missed church and haas graduation.. yipes) and i don't remember what happened during the day, but at night was ashley chuong's birthday party~ what a fun night. i love just chillaxin and making fun of drunk people in the comfort of a friend's home. some highlights: met a coworker for the first time, deep talks with johnim and bor kae. but my body can't handle staying up til 3am anymore. yipes, i'm getting old...

on monday, memorial day, i did the traditional thing and had some barbeque at bor kae's. bkbbq. hahaha
there were the cute couples: helene and jason, eric and breanne(sp?), and there was the rest of us: borkae, bubba, juju, peter, and me. and we all watched bor kae's baby videos and oogled over his high school pictures. that boy is so loved... must be nice :)
but after the bbq came the highlight of the day. no. highlight of the summer.
THE SIMS: DELUXE baby.
we had rented the sims for gamecube saturday to find that alas, his roommate took his gamecube back home for summer! ever since then we were itching to play it. thankfully, EB games does not close on memorial day, so bk got the game and we got our game on. sososososooo fun~
every semester i have had a week or two when i was addicted to sims. in the dorms, i went to may's room and played til like 4-5am and people had to kick me out for my own good. hahahaha. last semester i went over to kai's almost every day and played sims in her room while she studied physics outside.
why am i sucha dork.

tuesday marked the beginning of session A. asianam is kindof... intimidating. since everyone has different opinions about race/gender/sexuality issues, i found it difficult to participate in class. i don't have a lot of opinions on things because i don't normally surround myself with controversial issues and discussions.
i planned on hiding my being semi-conservative because my gsi is super liberal. but she's pretty open to different ideas so it's kindof a free-for-all. we'll see how that goes.

* beyonce ft. jay-z - crazy in love

j'ai fini!

*let the fun begin* - a novella by jennifer m lee

yesterday was quite an adventure.. lemme tell ya, we berkeley students may know how to study, but we also know how to get our partayy on! :)
brains AND fun - what a great combo!

after my econ 175 final [i hope i did well.. fingers crossed] i was wandering the streets of berkeley with jungabung when we ran into kristy and janeypoo. ooohh i love my unnis!!!! we went to darumas to "get our grub on" but alas, they had no flour to make noodles for jjam ppong! we felt bad, but we decided to take our business upstairs and got some jjam ppong, jja jang myun, and kam ppong chicken... yummylicious :)
after the grub fest, all of us minus jung went over to jane's to play nintendo64. dude, playing video games made me feel like a kid again - what a GREAT feeling. haha i like squealing and freaking out when i play games. it's fun to play with me!!

after a spontaneous dinner with the beta phis and kristin our new sopi president at tako sushi, i went home to change real quick before going to graduations...
graduations are quite bittersweet. like, you're happy that the graduates are done and will be moving on to greater things, but at the same time, you're sad that they won't be part of your college experience anymore. even if you aren't the closest of friends, they're there if you ever wanna talk, wanna play. and the seniors this year were some great people:

evelyn - my most valuable pearl. motivating, fun, and oh so understanding
johnim - you have touched a lot of people with your kindness, love, fun, diligence..
danny - fellow chem n.e.r.d. and simply a great friend to have
jamie yoon - one of the sweetest and funkiest girls to know, a strong woman, always smiling..
haejin - spaghetti and meat, deep conversations, fun conversations..
aaahhh just thinking about everyone and the memories we've shared is making me teary. sigh.

i know some of you guys are gonna be around berkeley or in the bay area.. but i tell ya, it's not the same!!!! WAAHHHHH

after the peis and mcb graduations (this world is turning into acronyms), i went over to ev's and sipped some merlot, zinfandel, and champagne with beta phis, some beta pis..
and watched head over heels. two words: ultimate cheese. however, there were some good bathroom scenes ;)
it's so funny cuz we were eating CHEESE and crackers while watching a CHEESY movie. hahaha how much better can it get?
haha but jenn seemed to like it :) what a ball of cheese. while she was googly eyed, i was laughing and criticizing the entire thing.. when did i become so cynical?

i headed over to susan's for some more partayying and found half of those kids buzzin like bees. imagine my shock! ooh some people gotta learn how to maintain and be better drunks! hahaha. i think a lotta promises were made last night.. will those promises be kept? we shall see.
but then people left and were supposed to come back and didnt and argh it was a bit of a mess. manners.
the night didn't end quite as well as i had hoped to but it's all good~

this morning i saw my ev graduate, said goodbye to thuyvi, and ate with a random group of people at the super! dc. man what a funny group of girls.
so i learned that most people (including me!) do not wash their hands properly after using the bathroom. did you know you're supposed to wash for the duration of the "happy birthday" song? approx 15 seconds. that's hella long man! isn't long exposure to water and soap bad for the skin? it strips away the natural moisture..
alsooo kathleen's episode with her cell phone in the bathroom. hahahaha. she was playing snake on her phone while doing her business and when she bent over to flush..
AAHHHH hahahahahahahaha that just made my day.

today i look forward to napping, cleaning my room, france plane tickets?, and a reunion with crown royal. muhahahaha

a toast to.. summer!!! (notice there's nothing in my hand - oooh i tricked ya'll drunk butts)
left to right: me, earl, paul, becky


* dashboard confessional - the best deceptions

doe library, my 3rd home

a lotta people have been asking me where i've been, and i simply answer "library!"
sigh.. despite all the lost sleep and stress i don't think finals are going too well. sometimes i wonder why i chose berkeley.
by agreeing to be a student at Cal, it's like paying them to give you a bad GPA.
blargh
i'll be more of a nerd next time.

so i'm done with half of my finals. well, done with the harder half. tomorrow's french and friday's demography - hopefully not too bad?

well, i'd like to share with you one of my pet peeves:
people who go to the library only to talk to others and distract all the stressed ones around them. sometimes i admit i am in need of a chill pill, but i don't understand why people go all the way to the library to "study" aka laugh and talk for hours. if they are taking a break, why not go OUTSIDE?
gosh, it wouldn't hurt to be a little considerate of the <> people around.

woo hoo! i'm so glad i don't have to go to the library anymore :)

it's so absolutely beautiful today - once i'm done sulking about my failure maybe i'll go outside and bask in the sun. i love that word: bask
campus is so cheerful with all the grads and family walking around. makes me want to graduate NOW. hehe.
congrats all you lucky seniors (i'll miss you guys so much)
beaufied pledge mommy ev, danny, johnim, chris, derek, sol, allen,...

i dunno what i'm gonna do next year when all the juniors leave!!! i don't even want to think about it. waah...

* dashboard confessional - hands down

who has my CDs??

i've been letting people borrow my CDs without keeping track of them.. and now i'm missing quite a few!
anyone have my CDs? esp. my oasis "(whats the story) morning glory"?

**disclaimer: this is a very long sad and angry rant so be ready to be sad and angry with me, but not at me. otherwise, have a nice day**

so this morning i took my bio 1a final... ya.
as i was walking towards haas pavillion in the sunshiney weather at 8am, i saw the F-line AC transit stopped in front of eshlemen hall. i thought of just jumping into that bus and going to s.f. and skipping my final. background music in my head: "walking away" by craig david
well, it was inevitable. once i entered the gymnasium-set-up-with-tables-and-chairs-for-classes-of-500+people, i knew i would be slaughtered and left to die a slow and painful death. and i was.

but it didn't make me cry. at 11:30am i called mommy for some reassurance and decided to wait til wednesday to find out how i really did...

never before has a final left me feeling so utterly helpless and dejected.
i vow that when i come back to Cal next spring, i am going to read and review lecture notes/textbooks/etc every single week so that come finals week i will be prepared!!

why am i having such a hard time trying to move on with my life...

since the best cure for depressed jenn after a final is sleep, that's just what i did. i slept until stephen called me to go to sophomore dinner together.
oh crap.
i quickly got ready and we headed to jupiter but found out that we are going to another place? wha? we ended up at a place called Yummy Curry by McDonalds. let's just say some of us regretted not getting the $1 chicken sandwich from McD :)

i was disappointed more in some other things than the food tho.
sure, the food and service were pretty bad, but giving the waitress a hard time and leaving before making sure you gave enough money for the bill, that's even more unacceptable.

the one thing i learned this semester is that true friends look out for one another; it should come naturally. if you slack off in carrying out your responsibilities, others (your friends and loved ones) will have to pick up your slack. you should NOT leave friends in such a situation, ESPECIALLY if you care about them.

also, actions speak louder than words.
as Korean, *Christian* Cal students, we should know what this means. any unforgiving attitude gives Koreans, Cal students, *CHRISTIANS* a bad rep. who are we to be unforgiving and hold grudges towards other people?
so many times have i heard others comment about how "Christian" or "non-Christian" someone is.
say a Christian girl is drunk at a party and is seen hooking up with random guys. others will say things like, "i thought she was a Christian" "doesn't she go to church?"

our waitress saw us pray before our meal and also saw our ingratitude and fussiness throughout the whole evening.
i bet she was glad we left. i bet she'd never want to serve us (or anyone who looked like us) ever again.
sure, people say you shouldn't care about what others think, but the truth is YOU SHOULD.
you are a representative of your race, school, sorority, religious group and you should conduct yourself appropriately.

i for one am going to try to be better at this :)

only when times get rough and unpleasant do you realize who your true friends are.

* busta rhymes, mariah carey - i know what you want

never have i been so stressed out

all the signs of stress having been showing up:
-loss of appetite
-mood swings
-difficulty in going to sleep at night
-tummy doesn't feel good
-i was expecting my "you-know-what" but stress is delaying it

sigh...

* ultimate fakebook - soaked in cinnamon

bay scallop roll

thank you menzies, my-lan, and jason for accompanying me to a wonderful dinner at alameda sushi house
the tricky bio lab exam and pms kicking in kinda put me in a funky mood, but all that fabulous sushi really cheered me up :)
they almost got a picture of me talking with my mouth full.. whew. i wouldnt want people to see me like that! haha.. yes. i may seem petite and cute on the outside, but on the inside, i'm actually a monster!! roar.

i'm kinder stressed about finals and tests and stuff, so i can't seem to express my thoughts coherently in words. thus i will leave u with more pictures:





* r.kelly - ignition (remix)

YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!


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uh.. how disturbing

* dashboard confessional - swiss army romance

picture time!!

chillin at the beta phi table. what is amusing bor kae? i dunno... :)


happy beta phis [me, thuyvi, becky] with handmade photo albums and our house sweatshirts:


lets the presents roll in...:


big sis rosie and me:


doin a little daaance:


fun times.. beta phis with pledge mommy:


for more pictures check out: alpha SOPi website

crown royal

is this girl's drink of choice. i actually wanted to drink champagne but i didnt get to :(

wow. WHAT a week it has been. had my last bio 1a lab (woo hoo!), date auction (full body massages from 5 girls for $75), last FiCB of the semester, PAPhi installs, FiCB senior banquet (which i could not attend.. sorry) and lab exam review on the same day as our alpha SOPi installs
and trying to be a good student at the same time..

since it would take forever sharing all the wonderful things that happened this past week, i will focus on yesterday cuz dammit, yesterday was GREAT :)
it kinda sucked that i had a lab exam review that took away some time from looking my best for the formals, but even with a last minute hair appointment cancellation, everything turned out fine.
i picked up corsage/boutinere(?) and a dozen roses, did my hair and makeup, got dressed, and packed up gifts and dance wear within 1.5 hours. i AM super jenn.

everything about formals was absolutely gorgeous. kristin did a magnificent job with putting everything together - location, decorations, program.. even down to the little details. who knew she had her own personal stresses in addition to stresses from formals. seeing such dedication really motivates me to give my all in everything i do.

i usually do not like taking pictures, but yesterday was an exception. we took pictures by the balloons, by the mirrors, by the fountain.. everywhere! with dates, with beta phis, with pledge mom and beta phis, with dates and beta phis, with zeta gammas and beta phis,... but i loved it!
i can't wait to get em developed.

and the whole night, i was ecstatic not only cuz i got a corsage (hee hee) but also because i had the best date and cuz my pledge sisters had great dates also. thuyvi was worried about being set up tonight with kristin's lil bro (becky's twin), but dude, the match couldn't have been more perfect ;)
ooh. and the presents

letters, letters, letters!! they are finally here!! i got 2 sweatshirts, a jacket, and a hoodie with letters. candles, pillows, frames, photo albums, wine glasses galore.. and a nalgene water bottle. hahaha. my big sis is so funny.

the beta phis were all kinder scared about the afterparty, but it wasnt as scary as i thought it'd be. some people were very pushy about drinking, but i'm glad they tried so hard to get me drunk. haha. i think i drank with everyone i wanted to drink with.. except for big sis cuz she had to drive. i was especially glad that my childhood friend eddie kim came to partay :)
i was maintaining the entire time at the beta tau + amy's apartment, but once i got to bor kae's it was "game over". woah there. and poor thuyvi and becky were gone long before i was..

beta phis need to learn how to maintain.

* duran duran - ordinary world