eating chocolate is like giving yourself a big hug

that was the message written on the tin wrapper of a Dove Milk Promises chocolate.
i better eat lotsa chocolate cuz i'm in need of lotsa hugs!!

this week has been quite the crazy one- lotsa good busyness, but even more bad busyness
yet i seem to only remember the good busyness~
make way for optimistic jenn!! weeeeee

all i can remember is chillin with the beta phis (beautifys) kekeke
shopping with the big sis [we both got t-shirts that has a picture of a pig saying "don't eat me i love you"] too bad we're both crazy carnivores!! roaar
randomly attending an IM softball game and cheering on "newbies" and "telebears" in the freezing cold!
lunch with haejin @ espresso experience - bulgogi sandwich! yummm
baking banana cream pie for the sopi sisters
and lotsa studying...

bio midterm tomorrow. ARGH

i had a potentially full of crap day, but i tried to focus on the more pleasant aspects of my life such as:
seeing a little girl with pigtails trying to keep pace with her mom
running into friends and being greeted with a BIG genuine smile
yay :D
i won't let you negative things rain on my parade!!

before the sugar high dies out, i wanna share with you...
reasons why i looooove my roomie:
1. whenever i am acting silly she acts silly with me so that i don't feel silly by myself
2. she can make better funny voices than i do
3. she magically replaces the TP dispenser roll before TP runs out! (i notice!)
4. her opinion means a lot to me:
*yesterday she playfully said, "jenn your room is messy!!" but after she said that i was motivated to clean my room. now it's clean and fit to live in! i lover it!
*i came home at around 2:30pm today and was planning on skipping econ175 lecture. but she was home and she told me to go, so we walked to our respective classes together and i ended up really enjoying lecture
5. her nickname is BOOTY!!

yay i have been nominated for the france language and culture program!!!!!!

* frank sinatra - i won't dance

sunshine and a light breeze

are the weather conditions right now in berkeley.
i spent the morning moving out mommy's stuff and chillin with her at 4th street in berkeley. we couldn't have picked a better day for an excursion there~
we walked around, checked out artists at work at the art gym, looked around crate and barrel outlet, jest jewels jewelry store, numerous arts and crafts stores, and bookstores..
doesn't it sound funn :)

for lunch i got a chicken and mole enchilada and my mom got some gnarly lemony chicken salad at the pasta market
they were selling 3 yr old cheeses and handmade bread there.
i hope france is like that. i'd eat SOOO well there

then the p.sis's and p.bros met up at la loma (FRIGGIN FAR) and planned out our skit for "siblinghood." dang i am participating in two skits right now - one for potch for FiC, and the other for the SOPis. keke i'm so important.
for the FiC one, i think i'm gonna be the daughter..
for the SOPi one, i'm gonna be the big evil boss. puhahahaha :D

* stevie b - when i dream about you
thanks p.bros!

pier 41

is my new favorite hangout place. too bad its in friggin s.f. fisherman's wharf and it's far away~

mommy woke me up at 7:30am so that i wouldn't miss my 8am class. so i have been awake for a total of 14 hours already.. dENg.. sooo tired!
met mommy for coffee at cafe milano at 9am, and had the BEST cafe latte ever. EVER!
and after ending french class at noon, we went to SF to *chill*. we went shopping at the usual places- but didn't buy as much as i wanted to. hahaha SO SPOILED :) nono i'm not. really.

and thenn we proceded to go to one of the most wonderful places i've known - fisherman's wharf.
i LOVE the embarcadero. i LOVE the breeze and the lights and the bay.. the view of coit's tower, of the bay bridge, of the golden gate bridge, of campanile.. ahh.
we ate at one of my most favorite restaurants - bubba gump restaurant
i had the daily special: 4oz mahi mahi and some shrimp slathered in buttery something sauce on top of jasmine rice (taste buds are reminiscing)
and my mommy got dumb luck coconut shrimp.
for drinks i got strawberry lemonade (made fresh and with chunks of real strawberry!) and mommy got some kindof margarita.
afterwards, we took a stroll down pier 41 - got to see some seals perform a very discordant song for us, and just sat amidst the sea breeze.

and being the good navigator i am, we never got lost, and we found great parking. woo hooo

and tomorrow i get to go to 4th street in berkeley and possibly eat at bette's diner and go to my favorite jewelry store!

days like these, life is great :)

* u2 - with or without you

ferraro rocher

i just got back from a short night out with big sis rosie~ we ended the night with mondo gelato (a perfect ending to an incredibly long day).

mommy is here for the week mon-sat. it's kindof difficult living under her scrutiny.. it's so unlike my berkeley lifestyle to be living under scrutiny. at agoura, i understand having to live with her rules, etc. but not in berkeley!
for the past 2 days we've had ppl over for dinner - raandom groups of ppl. it stressed me out a lot for some reason. the fact that she's doing so much work for nothing at all. it makes me feel really weird, real burdensome. maybe this discomfort in depending on ppl is a sign that i am growing up? ...grreat.

i have lotsa stuff i'm thinking about, but i can't quite express all of them in blogger words, so i will end my very late entry here.
just know that if you're reading this and i haven't really seen you today (or yesterday, or the day before), i miss you!

* hoobastank - better

just like this color

i feel like ddong.
cabby the fish has officially passed away 1.5 days after put into my care.
i have almost cried two times in the past 24 hours.

i bet i'm just very emotional right now - not only cuz of recent events but also cuz of hormonal imbalance.
i wish i could just pop a pill and make it better.. i can't focus with all this noise inside my head.
i hate being weak.

* tori amos - i don't like mondays
you can say that again...

il y etait longtemps..

probably because i have found other things, better things, to occupy my time and thoughts..
this semester, i have found:

- friends: friends who, although not always physically there, are always spiritually and emotionally there.

- peace: in who i am and where i am; knowing what kind of person i want to be, and where i want to go. i didn't have this last year..

i still have yet to find myself through all this
sorry for this very vague and somber entry.. it's prolly due to lack of sleep and PMS ;)

* ben folds five - evaporated