A positive

my blood and urine test results finally came out-
i will refrain from revealing all the results, but i am in pretty good shape and i finally know my blood type after 19.6 years in the dark!!

today was yet another busy day with dentist and doctors visits. GGRR no more of those for me!! another two novacane shots and two drillings(?), a measles booster shot, and a friggin hour of waiting in the doctor's office. ggrrrr

sopi/lfe camping trip: july 25-27

one of the more interesting trips i have experienced. first night was.. err.. stressful, but it was still fun making fun of daniel for his lack of korean-ness. burro wings too hot for you?? weaksauce!! hahaha. and big 2 aka pisoi aka 13 was the card game of the weekend. jenny and i reigned as champions.
the sun refused to show the next day, but we still had fun at morro bay playing stupid mind trick games: the stick game, black magic, the number game, sculpting game...etc. and at night, i was not myself. hahaha big humongous thank you's to becky, jenny, david, and daniel for all your help. eeuuww i still remember chunkiness.

but best of all, i finally got to meet some of the infamous pledge bros and pledge sisses.
jennay: yay pledge sis! u are crazy, about to embark on yet another road trip. i know u guys will have so many laughs on the way there cuz u always got funny things to talk about! :)
fungus: you were like our entertainment for the weekend. i had fun just watching and laughing at your funniness. and the nicknames.. whether they like it or not, they will stick!
ivy: crazy driver~ u give us women a bad name!! haha jk :) u are so cute pledge sis!
tammy: it's the tammy show! u are so funny intoxicated p.sis. too bad i didn't get to see u live :)
sandy: star gazing, eh? haha :) i didn't get to talk to u much pledge sis, but i know i will see u at mandatory sopi schtuff sometime in the near future! come up to berkeley to play sometime, k?
sean: big props to you for planning the camping trip and for being 1/4 korean. crown royal next time, yeah?
david: non-korean korean. it was really fun talking to u on the drive up (and thanks for driving down). i'm honored to have been present in the beginnings of a blossoming.. yeah.
daniel: u weaksauce. i'm really sorry about the um.. chunky moisturizing lotion incident. eeuww- let's go to roscoe's and stuff our faces with non-spicy chicken and waffles okay?
eugene: berkeley! berkeley made me do it- ggrrr i will get u back, berkeley! but seriously, i'm so glad i got to meet finally meet the berkeley pb~ i swear i wasn't ignoring u during school (not on purpose at least) :) u better tell your 2 pb's what a cool pledge sis i am!!
carlo: omg i almost forgot your name cuz all i remember is calling you osama! hahaha mr. bin ladin. okay, i swear, thats the last time i call u that. haha u got thrown into the ocean- booo u almost threw me in too
izumi: ggrr i wanna call u by your nickname but u wont let me :( it's okay~ hmm i dont remember talking to u much pb.. maybe next time
doug: funny funny guy. thanks for letting all 100000 of us crash at your place. bodies and sleeping bags everywhere! hope u have fun in slo aka the ultimate boonie watching mtv and gambling
alvin: authentic flour sack- i appreciated your fashion statement :) thrift store shopping is fun, huh! let's hang out in so.cal this summer okay? socal pride!
ken: lovers leap partner~ stop staring at me evilly while playing big 2.. u were freaking me out

now i really wanna go on a trip to cancun~ i hear the nightlife there is perty fun- who's in?? it's gotta be sometime before aug 28th (when i leave for france)
and whaddya think of the thunderstorms and random bits of rain in the middle of july? weirrd..

*chingy - right thurr

numbness

the freakiest/coolest thing happened at the dentist's office today.
while i was about to get two novacane(?) shots to numb my mouth, guess what song played in the background?

WE ARE FAMILY - sister sledge

yea, since i had no one to grab, i started grabbing myself in preparation for the pain (the way i grab people while watching movies), and what a relief to hear our pledge class song! the shots didnt even hurt that much..
aaahhhh i love my beautifys. can't wait to be together this weekend. there will be drunken madness and much fun :)

now it's therapeutic chick flick time with the coolest ahs chica and lino the mandy moore chick flick lover. haahahah

some lyrics from j.lo's - all i have

well im bouncing and I'm out son
I gotta leave you alone

'Cause im good
Holding down my spot
And I'm good
Reppin the girls on the block
And I'm good
I got this thing on lock!
So without me you'll be fine, right?

*j.lo - all i have

this is what happened

warning: may be highly offensive to xy-ers

charlotte and harry (the jewish lawyer) in sex and the city

harry is not the kind of guy charlotte dates. harry is a short, hairy, chubby, pushy, and sweaty lawyer who doesn't possess any of the characteristics that charlotte desires in a man.
she wouldn't have even considered him to be anything more than her divorce lawyer until he made a move on her. he poured his heart out to her, telling her how highly he thinks of her and what a perfect woman she is. at a vulnerable state, charlotte ignored her apprehension and uncertainties and, well, slept with harry.

now, they are in a relationship and are pretty serious. and now, harry tells charlotte that he cannot go any further because she is not jewish. he was okay with sleeping with her before, but now, when she has grown to love him, he doesn't want her anymore?

and charlotte explores judaism and considers becoming jewish for harry.

sound familiar?

it's all about the chase. whether good-looking or ugly, all guys are the same, and all they care about is putting another name on their list of heart-broken girls.
every single guy that passes me by should apologize for being male. but even that wouldn't be enough for me. and don't act like you're the one who's hurt.

#*%& you

battle of the sexes

here, in this conversation about a wedding, is a prime example of the difference between guys and girls:

aleX s Hyun (12:34:09 AM): food wasn't all that great
j e n n 637 (12:34:39 AM): aww
j e n n 637 (12:34:42 AM): where was it?
j e n n 637 (12:34:50 AM): food isnt all that matters in a wedding u know
aleX s Hyun (12:34:54 AM): at my church
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): haha
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): haha
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): yeah it is
aleX s Hyun (12:35:03 AM): what are you talkin about?
j e n n 637 (12:35:21 AM): huh?
aleX s Hyun (12:35:29 AM): food is all that matters

guys- one track mind. seek only satisfaction and things that please them (what do u call that word?)
girls- sensitive. happy to celebrate in other people's happiness and to share in other's sadness.

but we still love alex :)

steam

saddest song in the world that describes how i feel:

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't


I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight


Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

*bonnie raitt - i can't make you love me

closure

man, i wish i were at the dodger game er.. last night. the 6th inning was pretty exciting~ slowly but surely the dodgers caught up and won! home run, double play, wonderful pitchers (gagne means gained/won), and best of all, 8-5! TAKE THAT
haha that one baseball game at pacbell park really got me into baseball. now i wanna go to dodger stadium and watch a game with fellow dodger fans. all the black and orange at s.f. was kindof intimidating.

today was kindof a productive day. after mommy came back from work, we went to the library to return her books and she got two new books and i got two movies - ma vie en rose, and singing in the rain. i wanted to get two more: bleu and rouge (two of the color trilogy, french classics). i will get those on the next library run.
i just finished watching ma vie en rose, and although it won a golden globe, i found it slightly aggravating. ggrr.. every single character in that movie pissed me off. oh well, c'est la vie. shrug.

hmm after library we went to the salvation army to donate about 6 boxes of clothing. whenever i try to get rid of old clothes my mom gives me this whole lecture on why i shouldn't buy new stuff when i already have so much. aahh but FINALLY i got to clean out my closet and get rid of dilapidated old clothing. YES!

we then headed to the korean market to fill up our already stuffed refridgerator. we got almost every kind of vegetable, my mom got yet another packet of kim despite the gazillions of packets we already have... it was fun :)
we used some of our new ingredients to make nakk ji bbok kum. hmm how shall i translate this, sauteed squid? nevertheless it was good stuff. after the meal we boiled some corn and had a feast on those while watching the dodger game on tv. my vacation is starting to sound pretty good~

but despite all this goodness, i can't seem to let go of the one thing that makes me sad, mad, anxious, nervous, excited, and worried all at the same time. i can feel it slowly eating me away. i know i'll get hurt. i know he'll hurt me.
WHY is it that when it comes to boys, i can't seem to do the right thing?
why do i blatently disregard the best advice given to me and ignore what my head says?
why do i hold onto this sadness when i could just lay them down at God's feet?
my priorities have really gone whack..

*the beatles - let it be

wandering eyes

the beach was SOOO perfect for today. a strawberries wild smoothie, a togo sandwich, and lotsa catching up and advice-sharing with angie also added that special touch. seriously, i do not understand why we don't hang out more often!! haha there were lotsa funny things said that i will keep to myself.
it must be pretty hot when it's even hot at the beach. yea. we split our time sizzling and sharing in the sun or playing in the water with the kiddos. kids infested the water everywhere!! and i got a little more tanned then i thought... but i like it! :)
i should enjoy the beach while i can. really, the sound of crashing waves and kid playing in the distance is really quite soothing.

mm then a protein packed dinner at home with mommy topped the day off- a simple top sirloin steak with salad. oof i'm so tired from beaching and.. i dunno what else.. i dont think i'll even watch law and order (one of my new fav tv shows)
man that show is so goood. but not as good as sex and the city!

it is almost official: nor cal road trip with dj lino from july 31 to whenever~

*liz phair - why can't i

whirlpool

the nouveau frigo is finally here! hopefully this means i don't have to worry about milk spoiling in like 4 days. it's a white whirlpool that looks pretty humongous in our humble abode. hehehe but i'm sure that my mom won't have any trouble filling it up with random antioxidant drinks, marinade, and seafood galore :)

speaking of mommy. she is oh so busy. sigh.. the highlight of coming back home isn't even home most of the time! and if she IS home she gets called out to do this and that.. the hectic life (or lack of life) of a nurse. remind me not to be a nurse. i'm trying to make her life a little more comfortable by me being here - helping around the house, etc. but i may be causing more mess than i am cleaning up.
sigh. i'm useless.

maybe i should have taken summer school session C. i took session A so that i would have more time to spend at home, but look where that is turning out! my berkeley friends are not in so cal, and neither are my agoura friends! they are A) taking summer school at their respective colleges B) working full-time on weekdays C) working full-time at some random location for the summer
we are all growing up to fast!

workaholic
that's what i am. judy even told me so. yesterday at our dinner and a movie "date," i was whining about being so bored here after only a couple days and it was brought to my attention that i am possibly a workaholic. i always seek for excitement and will not sit still. i thrive on being a busy bee. i prolly got this from my workaholic mother :)

i wish i could find some fun and well-paying job, but since i only have about a month in this country(!) i think that will be a little hard. but i've made a phone call to the valley community clinic in north hollywood for a possible volunteer opportunity?? sigh.. the struggles of becomming a doctor. not only do u have to take competitive classes and get a good GPA, you also have to do well on the MCATs, volunteer ridiculous numbers of hours, and.. well.. be noteworthy!! and not only is med school torture but there's residency. yikes.

but that's what i want :)
all this talk about the future gets me excited. ya.. sometimes i have to remind myself to focus on now

* u2 - the sweetest thing

13.7 gal

for the past week, i have travelled..

berkeley to riverside/irvine/rowland heights
rowland heights to agoura hills
agoura hills to berkeley
berkeley to agoura hills

too much time spent in the car!!!

but on the way to berkeley from agoura, a car fire caused brushfire on the hills next to I-5, so all 5 lanes of the freeway were blocked!!! stopped in the 5 freeway with the heat and summer sun is not so fun! but while in heavy traffic, the gas light turned on.. indicating that i will soon be outta gas. after traffic clears, i saw a gas station but there were wayy too many cars and trucks getting off that exit, so i continued to drive. to my dismay, the next service station was 25 miles and the gas bar was going lower, and lower, and lower... we turned off the a/c to conserve some gas
soon i felt the car losing power and i had to press harder on the gas to go 60 mph. i was sweating like crazy and my mom was too..
8 more miles to go, but i thought my car was gonna die after 3. but.. WE MADE IT!!!
and when we were filling up gas, the car took 13.7 gallons. the tank holds 14 gallons.
what a miracle.

okay. well, now i am back in hot ol agoura, but my heart is still back in berkeley

j e n n 637 (3:28:06 PM): i misss berkeleeeyyy
a duck egg white (3:29:16 PM): hahah awww
a duck egg white (3:29:18 PM): we miss u too

sigh. i was sooo hungry today cuz i am afraid to eat anything outta the fridge because everything seems to spoil within 2 days in it.. and i wanted so badly to go to intermezzo or coffee source or cafe sorrento and get a big crunchy salad..
i feel like i have so much unfinished business left in berkeley. there is always so much fun to be had and i'm missing out on it!!
well, u know what that means: road trip. anyone in socal lemme know if u wanna go up in early or lateish august.

but some things i look forward to in so.cal are:
- finishing my eap paperwork schtuff
- going to irvine/riverside and playing with the sopis
- working out at 24 hour fitness(?)
- reading fast food nation and au contraire! (some book on french ppl).
- shopping and eating and cooking with my mommy
- camping trip with sopi pledge sisters and lambda pledge bros(?)

yay alpha sopi!!


* ultimate fakebook - glitter and glue