laziness

i have free hbo!!! i don't know how long it's gonna last..
but i have free hbo!!!
so far i've watched miss congeniality, parts of moulin rouge, and parts of legend of bagger vance

if u feel like being lazy, come on over and vege out with me on the couch!! woohoo

my kitty snores when she sleeps. she's louder than me and my mom :]
such the cutie

* tupac - thugz mansion

standing out of the crowd

so everyone in agoura looks alike. all super-thin caucasians with highlighted hair, sparkly
abercrombie shirts..
no wonder i didn't fit in. no wonder i still don't fit in

but hanging out with the few ppl i click with here..
there are such fond memories of ditching and dreaming of somewhere outside this bubble.
and we made it outside!!! so yay for us~

today michelleoh woke me up at the buttcrack of dawn (9:30am) to go to 3rd street
promenade, and we did LOTsa catching up. i'm still recovering from all the stories and
adventures i was told of..
and still recovering from the surprise i ran into at the promenade..

and we went to visit emilyohno at "something's fishy" - a restaurant where she works.
aaahh it was soo incredibly nice and reassuring to see that my good old friends haven't
changed much. still laid back, silly sense of humor, and staying real. gotta love em.

* avril lavigne - things i'll never say

who has my vons club card?

at the checkout aisle of vons at midnight, i searched through my wallet for my vons club card and ::gasp:: it wasn't there!
i think i let someone borrow it.. if u have it, you suck!! cuz now i gotta cancel my old membership and start a new one. BOOO

yesterday night i did some last minute shopping for mommy's gifts.. and i almost forgot how it felt to go shopping solo.
it was faabulous!! its so great browsing at your own pace and having time to soak it all in :)

afterwards i met up with some a-hill gangstas (puhaha) and got to talk and laugh and get carried...
dude, i hadn't seen dangruver in like 1.5 years- that was trippy.

hopefully lotsa random ppl will show up at kris' shin-dig friday night..

anyone wanna go to moca/lacma [art museums in l.a.] with me?

* b2k ft. pdiddy - bom bom bom

time of my life

can you feel the blessings rolling in?? i can :)
seriously, after that dreaded stat final [which was deng hard] things have been going very well.

home #2 is almost all packed for moving-
had a verry relaxing time with fobbykevin my last day at berkeley [mmmm banana ice cream with reeses mix-in]

at home #1, sleeping LOTS, a lotta chillen and relaxin with agoura friends :)

after like 2 days i started to miss my cal friends and started calling almost everyone ~ i absolutely love the friends i've made there. they were constantly there through many fun times and even stressful times.
but i got to see a lot of em yesterday- yayyy

yesteryday's partaay at janices was sooo fun
a biig thank you to janice and her mommy and daddy for opening up their house.

karoke and bowling @ midnight was much fun. carolina the kpop-star totally stole the show! :)
but anywhere doing anything with friends is fun for me.. aaahhh i can't wait to see them again

* santana ft. michelle branch - game of love

elena has officially passed out on my love seat~
aww she's so cute i wish i had a digi cam to take a pic of her and show everyone how cute she is.

cant wait to parttaaayyy after tomorrow..

* eve - satisfaction

spaghetti with meat
was on our menu chez haejin last nite.

so there i was in the library studying stat alone [cuz my friends decided to leave me :P], and i was super productive from 6-11pm straight.
i wasn't feeling too good.. feeling annoyed.. feeling pressure..
and decided to go home.

but alas, no one to walk with.

i say, "oh well, it's not too bad outside." but kristy and haejin cry out, "you're not walking home alone!! wait for us. we'll leave in 45 minutes."
i know better than refuse their offer.. so i wait.

and i end up going to haejin's and staying up til 5am talking [and a little studying]

it's so amazing cuz~
just when i was at the brink of losing hope in ppl... God blesses me with the company of two wonderful unnis.

honestly, this whole FiCB thing has been disenchanting me a lot lately. i love FiCB because i'm surrounded by ppl who share God's love, great friends, and a great class [2005!!] but.. something i lacked and wanted mostly was someone to look up to.

u upperclassmen might not know this, but we younger ones really do look up to you.

this college thing has been quite the rollercoaster ride for me, and i really wanted an older person who'll give me advice and who i can confide in. someone who i can look up to and say, "i really want to be like him/her when i'm older." someone who makes me feel comfortable enough to be myself.
but lately, the older ones in FiC just seemed too busy and inaccesible.

ya .. i know they're busy, but.. i'll just not go there.

so while i was feeling like this, kristy and haej reach out to me.. invite me to their place [the offer alone made me happy], and for some reason, i felt sooo comfortable with them. and we had a GREAT time.. aahh :)
hehehe kristy's "fingers" waving and haej's squeal and kristy's shrinkwrapped book and talking about serious/not-so-serious topics..
did i mention i had a GREAT time?

and, of course, guys were the topic of conversation at one point. but it wasnt like, "if you were stranded on a deserted island and had a choose one guy to be with, who'd you choose?"
it was like, "who are the great guys of every class.." those who are admirable and those who we just like. period.

the persons mentioned were:
freshmen: john, fred
sophomores: kevin, kyu
juniors: alex, kwansoo, roy, slum, eric, carroll, andychon, rob
seniors: kenneth, dan lee

i won't mention who mentioned who ;)
but i'll say that alex was mentioned by all of us. hahaha. but serious, girls, get some raid and catch roach while you can! [i kno, baaad joke. sorry]

* avril lavigne - i'm with you

yuck. i've been getting hives nightly.
maybe i'm developing an allergic reaction to the library.

maybe it's time for nyquil?

* oasis - don't look back in anger

i've got sunshine...

just got back from a fantaaaabulous breakfast/shopping date with my one and only my-lan.
only my-lan would wake me up at the butt crack of dawn [9am] to hang out. :) gotta love her~
[did i mention she's a world famous gymnast?]

we went down to 4th street in berkeley.. it's an entirely different world out there!
i think it's called the artisan district
cuz there's a buncha crafty stores and its waayy cool.

new favorite place to eat: bette's diner
you might've heard of this place cuz it's been mentioned in many places. noted for its fantastic food and service.

new favorite jewelry place: just jewels
not that i ever had a fav. jewelry place before, but this place is awwesome!! i would buy the entire store, but yikes.. its a bit pricey.

deng.. ppl mustve been bored yesterday cuz i got almost 50 visits here. ya i kno i kno, its not 100+ like super andychon or nancy but i can't compare myself to them.. they're in a whole different [blog] league. kekekeke.

p.s. all the furniture i put up for sale has been claimed already.. u kno what they say, u snooze u lose!! :)

* temptations - my girl

one more to go

finals have been going [surprisingly] well.
i've been suffering ..not sleeping enough, not eating well, enduring the suffocating atmosphere of the library for 5+ hours a day, and my rapidly vanishing social life.. but i must say,
if i do well on my finals, its allll worth it.

i honestly thought the ochem final would beat me to the ground, but it turns out ellman used some stuff from past midterms [which i went over].
and i got my quiz back today.. i was 99% certain that i failed that thing, but i didnt :)

..i think someone out there likes me

some words of encouragement to all those who are not yet done with finals:
nafnaf00 (10:14:39 AM): you're almost there man...just hang in there k?
nafnaf00 (10:14:45 AM): you'll do great

* unwritten law - cailin

happy birthday, kyu (12-13) and esther (12-15)!!

things i did friday instead of studying for ochem:
-music shopping (1 hr)
-music downloading (2 hrs)
-chatting (1.5 hrs)
-nap (3 hrs)
-karaoke and drinks for kyu's 20th birthday (5 hrs)

i didnt get ANY studying done, but i shure had myself a good time!
and now i suffer.

after waking up at noon it was non-stop productivity. but i let myself have a little break.
tonite the sophs and p.eugene had dinner at eunice's.
eunice and sun spent all day cooking yummy traditional korean food: ddak jjim, ttang soo yook, go dung uh (fish), dduk bbok gee, bbul go gi, mahn doo... to name a few.
by the time i finished one plate i was soooo incredibly satisfied. my tummy was thanking me :)

then afterwards the kids were gonna play but i had to break the party and go back to home #3 [library]. poooo

dang i am under so much pressure right now. deadlines left and right.
soooo it looks like i'm moving in with judy.
where will i find the time to pack all my stuff and take care of all the contracts i must break?

* n.e.r.d. - run to the sun

there is no day and night during finals week

since all one does is study and take finals (and sometimes sleep and eat), there is really not that much difference between.. lets say 4AM and 4PM.
the only real important times that do matter are at either 8-11AM, 12:30-3:30 PM, or 5-8PM.
yup. those are times that determine whether you get an A or B, B or C...

ooohh how suspenseful.

to celebrate the completing of half of my finals, i went over to rasputin and blew some cash on 2 CDs and 2 DVDs.

erin's weakness is for a $40 eyelash curler
janet's weakness is for fooood
and i've finally discovered my weakness for music

today i surrendered to:
oasis (what's the story) morning glory?
radiohead OK computer
and the wedding singer and as good as it gets dvds

and i dont even have a dvd player. puhahaha

* simon and garfunkel - sound of silence

every flower has to go through some dirt
too bad janet's an insect.

i have a confession to make. sometimes i wanna blog SOO bad. all i wanna do is blog and let it all out and then see what ppl have to say about it. but when i notice that i blog *too* much.. like almost every day.. i restrain myself, thinking to myself, "i have a life! if i blog everyday it'll seem like i don't have a life!"
so i didn't blog on sunday or on monday or on tuesday but now i wanna blog about so many things but there's no time!! but i'm doing it anyway.

i'm sorry dear blog readers, never again will i hold back on you.

i've been having a blast for the past several days. instead of studying like i should, i've been a social butterfly [flutter flutter]
playing hostess, chatting and going out to "study" at denny's [which will never ever happen again], talking on the phone for hours, eating dc food, having a spontaneous sleepover avec janet, and meat partay!!!! [tell me, what comes before part b?]

didja know denny's plays perty good background music?
most of the time i was just sitting there staring out into space listening to the music. the rest of the time i was busy spying on a big group sitting next to us.. a group of about 15 ppl? it was a rock band!!! they were all wearing black and all had dyed dark hair and i was trying realll hard to see if i knew what band they were. a part of me really really wanted to go ask them or ask the waitress who they were, but i controlled myself. haha susan and i are such groupies :P

didja know janet is the absolute kewlest/weirdest/most psycho person in the entire world??
i shure didnt. that girl makes me laugh soooo hard.. everything she does is soooo silly in a rude and disgusting way. hahaha no inhibitions :) i like that.
i'm also very very jealous of all her cute socks.. gray with santa/x-mas tree/present patterned socks yesterday, and pink with sparkly silver striped socks today!!!
aww janet i like u so much i would drag you in a sleeping bag from my living room into my room. would u do that for me?

didja know jason and helene are the cutest couple ever?
they seem so different yet i see the chemistry working man.. [flutter flutter]
sigghh it makes me so happy to see my frenz happy. their faces all lit up :) a lotta frenz are happily coupled right now.. it kinda makes me wonder, "what's wrong with me? why am i not coupled?" but then i get so happy cuz other ppl's happiness oozes out enough to fill my own happiness. hmm i wonder if that's it's healthy to live through others...

wow it's so hard to focus on pricing with market power,monopolistic competition, and oligopoly when so many things are going through my head..
i sense that something VERY good is going to happen VERY soon. just pray for me.. please..

i go now.. dreaming of eggnogg and flight back home on dec. 20th 7:05 AM

* jay-z feat. beyonce - '03 bonnie and clyde (me and my girlfriend)
she'd do anything necessary for him. and i'd do anything necessary for her. so don't let the necessary occur. YUP!

i am so humbled

prayer is so great. it is such a privilege to be able to pray freely without the fear of persecution. because without prayer, there'd be no way to communicate with God. and without communication with God, how could we come to depend on Him?

how great is it that we have this unchanging, embracing, providing, and alllways faithful God? if only everyone knew how great it is to have one like Him.

the prayer meeting really helped me realize how lucky i am. how lucky i am to have that eternal hope and eternal joy [despite all the crappy things of this world that bring me down]
how lucky i am to have a wonderful and supportive and fun mother/best friend.
how lucky i am to have such loving and encouraging friends who are [almost always] there for me. :)

even tho i kno these kids don't read my blog, [except for janet]
thanks janet for just - everything. u don't know how much easier u have made this year for me. who woulda known we could become such good friends!
thanks erin for being able to see through me and always wanting to share in my joy/sorrow.
thanks susan for your thoughtfulness. sometimes i dunno if your little acts of kindness are intentional.. but they're great anyway! and dangg.. i admire your understanding and patience with all the little annoyances in this world.
thanks robin dowdsy for big hugs and accepting me [and everyone] just for who i am. josh is one lucky guy!
thanks kristoff for always smiling and laughing at my jokes [even if i'm not that funny] and letting me in on your crazy life~

ok.. this is gonna get outta control. i'm gonna stop it here

* jurassic 5 - without a doubt

yawwnn..

i intended to start my day today at 8am. go to yoga class, meet with music 20a ppl for practice, hunt down my manager, do some hw stuff for chem and turn it into office hours... then class at 1pm.

but instead i woke up at 7am to my alarm, then went right back to sleep. then woke up at noon.. then class at 1pm.

last day of school today.. no more of this "i was gonna wake up early..." crap :)

* aimee mann - wise up

i've forgotten how much i hate allnighters...

i didn't mean to pull an allnighter last nite, it just happened.
so for the last 25 hours i have slept 2 hrs
for the last 52 hours i have slept 10 hrs
for the last 75 hours i have slept 16 hrs

i guess i dont have it as bad as other ppl...

* weezer - smile

if i'm ever a little down...

get me either a plain coffee [with a little nonfat milk and 1 packet of sugar]
or a little kid to play with :)

i went to stockton today for a festival and loved it for the same reason i loved home.
i love being surrounded by families- i need to be surrounded by families. it reminds me of who i am/where i'm from and gives me that sense of belonging.

i love kids who are curious and respectful and fun.
this world is full of cute kids. cute kids who love when u give them attention, cute kids who just look up at you and beam a huuuge smile...

* pink - family portrait
there's a cute kid in this music video

a la libraire avec esther, eric, et alex le "roach"

also on a caffeine high and also on eric's wireless internet
this has got to be the coooolest thing ever!!

iamsocool iamsocool iamsocool iamsohyper

* christina aguilera - beautiful

i'm back

thanksgiving break was so incredibly relaxing. being with family (my mom and cat) has truly rejuvenated me, so i can go back to being studious jenn again~

all i did at home was sleep (almost 12 hrs everyday) and shop and eat. i'm surprised momm didn't scold me for being a lazy butt.. she mustve seen that i was tres fatiguee.

it was really nice seeing all the streets and stores decorated in christmas (and chaunukah) lights and ornaments..
nothing gets u more in the christmas mood than walking through crate and barrel :)
but it kinda makes me mad that christmas has been so commercialized.. [watch miracle on 34th street]

* radiohead - karma police